Sanctuary

The House of God isn't always safe

It seems everything's been about religion for me lately. I promise you, though, this story is seriously crazy. 

I think LinkedIn is dumb, so I pretty much accept everyone who sends me a request to link up or whatever it is. After I'd accepted one gentleman's request, I got a message from him. He said something about not being entirely sure I'm the same girl he sees at church every week, but thinking that I was, and asked for my email address. I wasn't entirely sure what was wrong with discussing things with me on LinkedIn, but I complied and gave him my email. 

The next day or so I received an email from him. It seemed a little weird to me that the email was just chatty; he was talking about all the snow or something. Having looked at our church directory thing, I found out that he's married and has a family, so I didn't feel quite right about it. I didn't reply. 
A couple of days later, he sent another email. He started by saying I was probably wondering why he contacted me (uh-yeah). He said there were several reasons (sketchy) but that he wanted to apologize if I was uncomfortable with him staring at me. Then he referenced the previous week's Gospel...the one about plucking your eye out if it causes you to sin...and said that maybe I could "ugly [my]self up a little." Let's look at all the reasons this is wrong:

1. You're married
2. You're referencing the Bible as you're making yourself a total sleezeball
3. You have a family 
4. I do not know you nor have I seen you looking at me (conceited much?)
5. You're fucking married

Let me explain reason four a bit...it has to do with the setup of the church. I sing in the choir, which is right next to the altar. So even when I'm up on the altar singing by myself, I'm just looking out at a group of faces. The only ones I really notice are people I actually know. Even after looking at the directory, I didn't recognize this guy. So, no, I didn't notice his uber-creepy stares. 

He ended the email saying that he only has good intentions, that he's an advocate for me "behind the scenes." I don't even know what that means but I don't like it. After thinking for a while, I responded with what I thought was a courteous way of saying fuck off: I said I'd imagined he contacted me for business or religious reasons, and that I didn't notice any staring because I try to focus on God and the Mass. I thanked him for the prayers, because I'm willing to take as many as I can get right now. (But, on a side note, that's just as messed up. How can you talk about praying for someone while you're sending these creepy ass emails?)

I guess he didn't hear the "piss off" in that. He responded that he hopes I understand why he doesn't feel closure. Umm...excuse me? Closure?! From what?! Somehow, it got better. He said I seemed distraught at Mass the previous weekend. ( I was distraught, my legs are trying to kill me and it freaking hurt to stand!) Then...we had this..."Can you honestly say you had no thoughts of me during mass and that I was not the cause of this?"

What...what the fuck. Seriously, just, what is that. Let me say again that I do not know who this guy is! I cannot even comprehend the craziness in his brain. It makes my head hurt to try and figure it out. 

He then went on to say that he senses a connection with me and he wanted to acknowledge it. 

Uh...yeah...I don't live on The Bachelor. There's no "connection." The way he phrased the whole thing made it sound like this is not the first time he's pulled this bit, which leads me to believe he cheats on his wife regularly. I feel sorry for her, but she obviously fell for it. It's sad. 

In other news, Johnathan has been texting me with all the health issues I've had. (Oh, coming up to speed: I got a biopsy on Thursday and they found out it's a cyst that decided it needed a hematoma friend. Apparently it's really rare.  I ended up seeing the surgeon that afternoon, and he found a cyst in the other leg too. So basically my legs are just all sorts of messed up. I see him again on Thursday.) It's very sweet that he's sending my positive thoughts, but I let him know that I can't let him come back in again...he keeps doing this back and forth thing and I'm done with it. 

I've actually just kind of been throwing off any guy that's interested. I'm just not feeling it right now, and I'm sick of doing the whole dating thing. It seems that the attitude of not caring is a turn on. Maybe I should have caught on to that sooner.