History Repeats Itself

Here’s to all  the idiots who can’t seem to let the past stay in the past.

As expected, Child wasn’t thrilled about the upcoming trip. I don’t at all blame him; I wouldn’t like it either. I’m taking a hard line on this one though…the return tickets are purchased and the time is taken off from work. It’s happening. Sorry you’re sad about my life.

We’ve seen each other a few more times and he keeps talking about moving in together, having a baby, etc. I can’t entirely decide if he’s joking or not, but both of those sound like terrible ideas. I suppose most girls would be all excited about that. Apparently I am a suspicious, shriveled up old maid. GET OFF MY LAWN!

Saturday night, we were chatting a bit over text and he sent one saying he was drunk. A few minutes later, he asked if I’d be his girlfriend. I was not excited about that one either. I told him that my two issues with the question were that he was drunk, and that it was over text. The next day, he said he was sober and wanted to repeat the question.

Except, I didn’t get the text for like 3 or 4 hours after he sent it, because I was kayaking. We’ll come back to this.

I told him that I still didn’t like the question being over text. I really think he’s concerned about my trip and wants to have something official so that he has a “claim” on me or whatever. I know that I’m a man-hating spinster, but I completely understand it. The problem (for him, I guess) is that I’m not going to rush into anything just because of that.

There are logistics, too. Good Lord, I really am callous and mean! Anyway, he lives an hour away, and is a waiter. Basically that means our schedules are the complete opposite. My thought is that we need to take a little time and see how that will work. On the subject of opposites, our personalities are completely opposite. He always has to be moving or doing something, and I’m much more of a relaxer. He also likes to tease and push peoples’ buttons just to get a reaction, but then he acts surprised when I get annoyed or angry. How is that a unexpected?!

And, damn it, let me enjoy my vacation in peace! Let me worry about that when I get back, rather than having to think about some pining boyfriend back home the whole time. Moving right along…

So. Kayaking. Saturday I was chatting with Soldier a little bit and he asked if I wanted to go kayaking the next day for Harry’s birthday. Of course I agreed. I was a little apprehensive, but figured I should probably just get over it. Hermes was there too, but I mostly just ignored him. I did do quite a bit of observing and just feeling everything out again. I mean, I haven’t been with this whole group in about a year. Soldier’s dad was there too, which was really nice. He kept hanging back to chat with me. I may be wrong, but I’d say he still thinks it was a mistake for Soldier to let me go. WELL HE’S RIGHT! Anyway…I did have a good time. I really like kayaking, and they’re good people to spend time with. Of course, it's still a toss up on how it'll go being stuck in a car with him for an extended amount of time. For now I can say that I'll do my best to relax, not worry about the little things, and just have fun. 

Sigh. Okay guys...I have some very, very sad news that you should probably brace yourselves for. It appears that Van Gogh has moved on. He has a new "luv" that he's vowed to "break free" from an existing relationship. How sad that my knight in shining armor has found another princess in a taller tower. That boy does love the torture. 

It appears that Dylan loves the torture as well. How many times do I have to blow him off before he realizes I don't want to hang out with him? It's getting super annoying and I'm running out of half-assed excuses. Clearly he hasn't read my notes on life, and how you can tell when someone's not interested. He probably still wouldn't give up. Some people just never learn.